Saturday, April 18, 2009

Are you listening?

I am very sick. This is the first time I've really been able to sit up. I've got a sinus infection that drained to my lungs so I am on an inhaler along with the antibiotics. Also I have the flu, when it rains it pours. :]
My post today is humbling to me. I don't enjoy letting people know my faults but I felt strongly about sharing this with you.
This last Tuesday I was running around trying to keep my children from going crazy being inside, it snowed again and the day before we all got sunburns playing outside. I also had to sign a million papers because we refinanced our house. A thought came to me a few times throughout the day, 'fold your laundry, you won't be able to later'. Because of all of the Easter fun I didn't get the laundry folded last weekend. I thought for sure I would have time later. I was scheduled for a tilt table test the next morning, Wednesday. It's a stress test but not one that I would spend days recovering from. So I dismissed the thought every time it came to me, making one excuse after another.
The next morning I went in for my test. It was worse than I expected but after a nap when we got home I felt much better. I was even able to take my kids to an activity center to get some of their energy out, we had more snow. While we were there I started coughing, not a big deal right. Well by the next morning I was full blown sick! It hit me hard and fast. I think it was because the stress test weakened my immune system. I've been so sick my husband had to take sick days at work and stay home. You might not think so but it really has been a big pain and stress not having the clothes folded. I continually apologized to my husband, who has been wonderful through all of this. I wasn't able to just tell the kids to go and get dressed like I usually do because they didn't have clothes in their drawers. And it can be so frustrating, especially when you're sick, to lay on the floor trying to help find pajamas or trying to match socks. My Heavenly Father knew that I was going to get sick. He tried to show me a tender mercy but I didn't listen. How many times does this happen to us? Our Heavenly Father loves us so much and he truly cares for us, even the little things. Our lives would be so much better and easier if we, if I, just listened more. Are you listening?

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